I miss you.

You are truly an inspiration. You knew what you wanted and nothing was going to stop you from achieving it. Love never fails, and you are irreplaceable. I always told you to never let anyone stop you from chasing your wildest dreams. I never realized I would be the one trying to stop you. As much as your absence has left a bruise on my heart, I know this is all for the better. Watching you take such a big step in your life is unbelievable. Life has so much in store for you. I cannot wait to see what it has to offer. Even though I never go a day without you crossing my mind, and I always wish you were here, this if for the better. You left a boy, and will come back a man. A better man. I am glad you are doing this for yourself. I only wish to be more like you. Come home soon, solider. I love you always and forever.

WONDER.

Live and let die.

HOORAH for a change of pace. I enjoy the idea of having a blog. Is it sad that having a blog used to sound "old school" to me? This is great! Heak, it sure beats formspring. Facebook is nice and all, but having a place to showcase your life, pictures, stories without being able to directly talk and social-network is fun if I do say so myself! Not that my life is super exciting or interesting in particular, but I think this is a fun concept. Having a place to share your life with others, especially for those that are not in our everyday lives. Now that it is summer, I know that I do not keep in touch with as many as I hope to, so this shall do. I enjoy reading others, too! Anyways. As of this moment, there is not too much on my mind. I am not ready to go back to school. Yes, I miss everyone...but the work. Oh, the loads of work. The concept of time boggles me. Grinds my gears. I could just be stating obvious questions, but who decided that we were going to have 24 hours in a day? 7 days a week? 12 months per year? 365 days per year? YES, I know that it has to do with the way our earth works, rotates, the sun...I understand, but it is all so crazy to me. Lately I have noticed that I have acquired the mind of a young child; the only thing that takes up space in my mind is wonders. I know that there are many logical and valid answers to my wonders, but it goes far beyond that. I know that the questions such as "how long is forever?" and "is there such thing has forever" are wonders that everyone has, but sometimes I sit and try to find answers. I go on forever. Sometimes I wonder if one of my answers are right, and all of those who have passed are banging at my window going "YOU ARE SO RIGHT" or "YOU ARE ON THE RIGHT TRACK!" but of course they cannot show themselves because they are dead. I think that when we all pass away we will finally realize what all the answers are by living life. It will just come to us. But what about those who die young? Do they get the answers or are they just given to them? Who knows. All I DO know is that as of now, I am at peace with realizing that you cannot know or understand everything. I can still wonder though, right? :)